(Santa Maria came to church with me yesterday! YAY! I appreciated the company so much. She also came with minimal bribing and manipulation. Actually, she's been wanting to come for a while now, and just finally had the chance to get over to my side of town.)
Change of topic:
Sometimes the day feels really long. This morning feels so distant and unfamiliar, like a dream I had years ago. I remember my sister waking me up and saying something about sleeping in, which surprised me because I was right on time. I remember having breakfast, and making coffee, and I remember falling asleep in Art History. But it's hard to believe I did all that stuff today. All my classes, and then everything I did at home: I practiced piano, and watched a movie...
I actually did a significant amount of homework tonight! I'm so proud of myself. I had some major deadlines this week (Tues and Weds) and those projects so consumed me that I thought of nothing else. I didn't touch any other school assignments, I didn't study, I didn't think about studying. I gave myself a break Wednesday night and was lazy. :) I think a little self-indulgence every now and then can be healing, as long as you return quickly to your policy of discipline.
And so that's what tonight was supposed to be. Getting back on the horse. Anyway, I actually buckled down and accomplished a good chunk of an assignment that isn't due until sometime next week. At the same time, my work ethic isn't at its best right now.
Honestly, I feel really lame. I've got a little cloud of guilt building up over my head, following me around. I'm turning into Eeyore! I can't take this accumulation of guilt anymore! I'm getting claustrophobic.
"Anyone, then, who knows the good he ought to do and doesn't do it, sins." James 4:17
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