...When my mom sends me to the grocery store with a brief list of requested items. I call her two or three times to verify brands and quantities. I casually walk up and down the same aisle before I spot what I am looking for.
...When I bake cookies or make mac 'n' cheese for my youngest sister. I keep the instructions at hand and reference them often. I ask my sister for permission before I adjust the temperature or set the timer.
...When I call the auto shop with questions about my car. I sound informed and knowledgeable as I ask and answer questions. I read from a cheat-sheet my mother made for me with terminology and facts about the vehicle.
...When I clean. I use the supplies my mother bought and follow the steps she set down for me. I scrub, and spray, and wipe, and dust, and vacuum.
I feel like I am playing house. Pretending to be what I am not. Posing. Lying. Hiding behind a facade. At what point will I transition from this dependence, the hesitance and uncertainty, to confidence and independence? When will it not be playing anymore?
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