Miscellaneous

So I haven't blogged in a while. I couldn't decide whether I should start an entirely new blog for my upcoming college experiences or whether I should continue with this same old blog. Then I couldn't decide at what point I should switch.

The transition is graudual, so...I'm not going to acknoweldge it. I'm going to keep on blogging here, I think.

This summer has been...interesting. I've been enjoying myself, but there's also a little bit of guilt because I feel like I haven't accomplished much of anything. I feel wasteful and lazy and self-indulgent. So yesterday, I helped my mother prepare dinner and clean up afterwards. I also met up with my employer-of-sorts and former choir director to discuss what hymns I'll be playing at his church when I sub for him later this summer. And then my youngest sister and I dressed up as princesses, with princess hair and princess make-up and princess dresses, and watched a princess movie while eating princess ice cream.

I don't always know how to relate to my little sister. She's ten years younger than me. There's so many things I want to tell her, but I don't think words are sufficient. If those words are going to mean anything to her, they need to be accompanied by action, backed up by tangible proof. I need to show her. So that's partly what last night was. Last night was supposed to say, "You're beautiful and incredibly important. I love you."

When I read and comment on the multitude of stories she is constantly on the computer typing out, that is meant to say, "You're talented and I'm proud of you."

When I am out of town and I make sure to wear the bracelet she gave me every day, wondering if she'll notice when I show her the pictures, that says, "I missed you!"

I hope it translates.