I feel...strange. As if I am only half living. As if I am a stranger to myself. As if the life I am about to step into in a week doesn't belong to me at all. As if I will cease to exist and another person will take my place.
Anyway, I leave for Auburn in a little less than a week, and reality is not setting in yet. In fact, I've been doing a grand job of avoiding reality, reading and watching movies and wasting time on the computer. So now reality feels almost like a dream, and that dream is getting darker and darker.
I'm letting it get to me. I know the unknown isn't necessarily unfriendly, but right now, I really don't want to face it. It's like I've entered a mourning period, but I'm not sure what I'm grieving over. What died?
Before long, I'll shed this sadness and remember all the reasons I have to celebrate, all that is exciting and thrilling about life. But for now, I think I'm going to cry just a little bit longer.
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