So Santa Maria brought it to my attention that I have not blogged in over a week. So here I am, shocked and apologetic. It didn't feel like it had been quite that long.
So life is busy, and messy, and no - before you ask, I am not just figuring this out. I am simply testing the hypothesis and confirming prior results. There is so much to do, and so little time in which to accomplish it all. Something is always left undone, or neglected, or fudged.
All these little things, the homework assignments I turn in that I know are of little quality, the days I skip over practicing the piano, the mornings I sleep in rather than do my Bible Study, all these little things build up a list in the back of my head. They stack on top of each other and stress me out. The guilt.
Because I know what I was doing when I should have been working on homework. I know that if I hadn't have watched that hour-long tv show, I would have had time to put real thought into the paper, and give my teacher substance rather than half-supported fluff. I know that if I would have resisted that nap, or would have cut it short, I would have been able to get to sleep that night and wouldn't have been so tired in the morning. I just shoot myself in the foot all the time when it comes to time management.
But the way I see it, eventually I'll get it all done. Not perfectly, no, but I am human, remember? And sometimes my mental sanity depends on that nap or that mind-numbing TV show. It's a trade-off, true, but the little breaks are worth it. If I don't take little breaks, I end up burning out completely and taking a week's vacation instead. :)
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