Just as I'm getting used to everything ... it's over.
This is finals week. I've found myself with an abundance of free time, a long to-do list, and a short attention span. Our piano juries were on Monday, and I still haven't gotten feedback from it. I took my first final last night: Spanish. I think I did okay, but I remembered this morning that I forgot to add in some stuff on my essay. Oh well.
At my core, I feel the same. But I also sense that I've changed a lot this semester.
What defines a friend? How often do you see them? How much do you actually know about them? Is time a factor at all, or can friends be instant?
And best friends. How do you define those? Are best friends relative to the other friends you have? Or is there just some special factor about a person that grants them such a status, regardless of how long you've known them or how much time you spend together?
Some days, I feel like an actress in a play. The people around me are only surface-level characters. We speak our scripted lines, and take our cues. We act as friends, because that is what we're supposed to do. Every now and then, someone slips up and says something out of character. That's when I remember that I do not really know these people. I only know their characters. That's when I suddenly remember the stage, the costumes and masks.
But we smooth it over, and continue. The play must go on.
On a less symbolic and more literal level, Auburn won the SEC championship! I watched the game in the Auburn Arena with a few other freshman girls. [Friends? Potential best friends?]
I love you (:
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