An Update

My great-grandma did not sleep at all last night. Instead, she roamed the halls of the nursing home. They couldn't get her to be still.

She did not put up a fight like we expected her too. She was not completely informed (no one ever outright told her she wasn't going home. We're not sure whether she's figured it out or not). We'll have to see how she does, though. I'm afraid to get my hopes too high.

I have lost my iPod...I don't know where SoloMan went!!! I seem to be losing and misplacing and forgetting a lot of things these days.

We had cheesecake today. Cheesecake and fettucini. Num num. I exercised self-control and did not completely gorge myself. I only half-gorged myself.

I am swimming in homework.

It turns out both my parents will be able to come with me to the audition on Saturday. I'm still a little nervous. I don't feel prepared, but at this point, there's not much I can do about that. So, I will go and show them what I know. Maybe it will be enough. Maybe it won't. But that's not the point, is it? The point is that I did it. I took a chance. If I don't get into the music program, at least I'll know. I'll know that I tried.

And I'll know that I have an amazing support group who is way more faith in me than I deserve and loves me despite my shortcomings.

When I mentioned to my dad my fears of double-majoring (which is what I'm seriously considering right now, an English-Piano double major), he asked, "Well, can you major in music and minor in english?"

Usually, he's much more inclined to be the practical realist. He's told me on multiple occasions, 'You're no concert pianist.' I know. He's always been one to focus on what needs improvement. But recently, he has expressed an admiration for my determination (or stubbornness).

So, on his advice, on the insistence of my choir director, and with a nudge from Maria, I'm auditioning. As much as the idea of the audition terrifies me, the idea of a life without piano would be tragic. So I'll find somewhere to play, even if I don't end up double-majoring.

(Psst...you guys should listen to Unbreakable by Fireflight. Me gusta.)